It was raining and foggy this morning, which I knew was just going to make for a horrid commute but oddly enough it was okay. This is why I know it is going to be a good day! LOL
Today was weigh in day. I am down 2.4 lbs. from last week, which I am happy about but man alive I need to get out of the 260's and stop playing around. This is the week that is going to happen. I am motivated, I have a plan and I am going to do this gosh darnit.
Today is also the last day of my Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I have REALLY enjoyed the program. I can definitely see the benefits of it and I am confident that I will do it again. With that being said I am not happy with my weight loss results over the past 30 days. I know that this is my doing - I know that I needed to be way more consistent with my food...WAY MORE CONSISTENT!!!
I have something to share with you - it is pretty exciting especially for us trying to lose weight! I can't wait to share, it just hasn't gone live yet. It is a community for weight loss support. I'm so honored to be a part of it!
GO!
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Greater Rate!
I am a huge Biggest Loser fan. I especially love the makeover shows! If you watched last night you got to see just how beautiful each and every one of them looked last night. They glowed from the inside out, I just love that!
I want to glow from the inside out. I am so sick of doing this “I’m gonna lose weight this time” game. I just want to shut up and put up. That is what I am doing this time. I am really trying to stay focused on the prize. The prize in this instance is my health. I am 34 years old and I don’t want to be 40 battling these same issues. Nope, I don’t – I won’t. Guess what? I’m doing it this time? I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. In fact yesterday I ate cheez-its but I am focused. I am aware!
Back to the Biggest Loser – I love the show. I love the message. I love that they are being taught life lessons. I hate the game play. Every season there are a couple that are REALLY into the game play and very cut throat. This year it seems to be a few more than normal. I don’t have a favorite to win, and man I hate that.
I wonder if this show makes me feel like a failure? I know that sounds silly but come on these people are losing massive amounts of weight each week and yet I am screwing around with the same 4 lbs. for a month. LOL This is the thought I had last night while watching the show.
THEN
I thought – HELLO! EXCUSE! If I was consistent with my intake and exercise I too would be losing at a greater rate. I’m ready to lose at a greater rate!
GO!
I want to glow from the inside out. I am so sick of doing this “I’m gonna lose weight this time” game. I just want to shut up and put up. That is what I am doing this time. I am really trying to stay focused on the prize. The prize in this instance is my health. I am 34 years old and I don’t want to be 40 battling these same issues. Nope, I don’t – I won’t. Guess what? I’m doing it this time? I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. In fact yesterday I ate cheez-its but I am focused. I am aware!
Back to the Biggest Loser – I love the show. I love the message. I love that they are being taught life lessons. I hate the game play. Every season there are a couple that are REALLY into the game play and very cut throat. This year it seems to be a few more than normal. I don’t have a favorite to win, and man I hate that.
I wonder if this show makes me feel like a failure? I know that sounds silly but come on these people are losing massive amounts of weight each week and yet I am screwing around with the same 4 lbs. for a month. LOL This is the thought I had last night while watching the show.
THEN
I thought – HELLO! EXCUSE! If I was consistent with my intake and exercise I too would be losing at a greater rate. I’m ready to lose at a greater rate!
GO!
Friday, November 13, 2009
North Carolina, I miss you!
Today is going to a be a little photo heavy and not really weight loss related but still FUN! We can still have fun, right?
I am so grateful that our annual Girl's Getaway was scheduled for last weekend and not this weekend. The Nor'Easter that has hit the Atlantic coast really would have put a damper on our weekend. We ended up having a BAD ASS weekend on all fronts.
This picture just cracks me up!
AHH, margaritas at sunset!
group self portraits = comedy at its best!
ocean - love it!
Moon, isn't it beautiful? 
Dunes...
GO!
I am so grateful that our annual Girl's Getaway was scheduled for last weekend and not this weekend. The Nor'Easter that has hit the Atlantic coast really would have put a damper on our weekend. We ended up having a BAD ASS weekend on all fronts.
This picture just cracks me up!
AHH, margaritas at sunset!
group self portraits = comedy at its best!
ocean - love it!
Moon, isn't it beautiful?
Dunes...GO!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Rainy Thursday
Where did the time go? I can't believe it has been a week or more since I last posted. I swear I think about posting EVERYDAY. I honestly think if I was more dedicated to this blog and the accountability it could hold for me I would not be where I am at today.
Today was/is weigh in day and it didn't go very well. I seem to be playing with the same 3-5 lbs. up, down and back up. I am on the up side this week and how do I say this nicely? It sucks! I so badly want to break out of the 250's. So my goal this week is to at least get into the mid 250 range. As of today I am 263 but I know I can get to 255 next week if I just drink my water, exercise and eat properly. I think at this point a few of those lbs. are water retention. I also have not been journaling faithfully. My food journal is very inconsistent.
Last weekend at the beach was AMAZING. I had so much stinkin' fun but with the fun came food that was abnormal for me along with not enough exercise. The girls made me feel so good though the first night oohing and ahhing over how much weight I had lost. (they had not seen me since last Oct.) I'm not gonna lie, it made me feel good!
It is super rainy here in Virginia today, a cold yucky rain. Gonna try to stay dry.
Have a great day!
GO!
Today was/is weigh in day and it didn't go very well. I seem to be playing with the same 3-5 lbs. up, down and back up. I am on the up side this week and how do I say this nicely? It sucks! I so badly want to break out of the 250's. So my goal this week is to at least get into the mid 250 range. As of today I am 263 but I know I can get to 255 next week if I just drink my water, exercise and eat properly. I think at this point a few of those lbs. are water retention. I also have not been journaling faithfully. My food journal is very inconsistent.
Last weekend at the beach was AMAZING. I had so much stinkin' fun but with the fun came food that was abnormal for me along with not enough exercise. The girls made me feel so good though the first night oohing and ahhing over how much weight I had lost. (they had not seen me since last Oct.) I'm not gonna lie, it made me feel good!
It is super rainy here in Virginia today, a cold yucky rain. Gonna try to stay dry.
Have a great day!
GO!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Judgement Day
Okay, it really isn't judgement day but tomorrow is weigh in day for me. I am a little blah about the whole hting because I know that I haven't done that well on the scale this week. I know that because I have stepped on the scale and it shows nothing. LOL BUT, I know I have made good choices and I know that the good choices will eventually pay off.
As I have mentioned on twitter...this time change is kicking my tail. Not really sure why but even last night I fell asleep while watching The Biggest Loser. I took like a 15 min. snooze. I have TONS to do this evening but I am still going up to the gym after work to get a little (30 min.) in on the treadmill. I have tried to talk myself out of it but I can't, I need it. Besides, leaving the city at night is simply beautiful. D.C. really is a pretty city. Last night while watching The Biggest Loser it was really cool to know right where they were and what they were doing. This morning I passed by the steps where the one challenge was done with the pennies and it made me giggle. I wanted to get out and see if there were any pennies left behind, even though I know that was months ago. I was also happy to find out that two times around the lake is a mile because I can walk down there at lunch.
I didn't really have much to say today - I feel blah and negative and just yucky. I need to shake the funk.
GO!
As I have mentioned on twitter...this time change is kicking my tail. Not really sure why but even last night I fell asleep while watching The Biggest Loser. I took like a 15 min. snooze. I have TONS to do this evening but I am still going up to the gym after work to get a little (30 min.) in on the treadmill. I have tried to talk myself out of it but I can't, I need it. Besides, leaving the city at night is simply beautiful. D.C. really is a pretty city. Last night while watching The Biggest Loser it was really cool to know right where they were and what they were doing. This morning I passed by the steps where the one challenge was done with the pennies and it made me giggle. I wanted to get out and see if there were any pennies left behind, even though I know that was months ago. I was also happy to find out that two times around the lake is a mile because I can walk down there at lunch.
I didn't really have much to say today - I feel blah and negative and just yucky. I need to shake the funk.
GO!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
2 more sleeps!
Yikes, is that powerful stuff or what?
All that chat yesterday - I make a Dr. appt. and my right hand to God the pain in the left side has gone away. It is confirmed, I am going nuts!
Okay, so yesterday went like this.
Greek Yogurt w/grape nuts
apple
chicken breast (baked)
steamed veggies (cauliflower, carrots, broccoli)
mini 100 grand bar
mini hershey bar
beef stew (1 cup)
tossed salad
1 spoonful of ice cream
1 bite of muffin
Okay, so overall yesterday was a good day but those darn mini bars. Today's goal is NO mini bars, I will walk a different way to the restroom since some lady at work has all the evil in big old bowl on her desk!
I completed day 14 of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. It is hard, it is challenging- I can't do it all on level 1 without modifications but I am doing more than I did on day 1 and it makes me feel good!
This weekend I am going to North Carolina. It is an annual trip that I take with 10 other ladies. It is a scrapbooking retreat at a beach house right on the beach! We have so much fun, no kids, no sig. others, just lots of laughs. The menu is planned for me but I will make wise choices. I believe I will even take pics of my food and either post it here or on twitter and I will take a walk everyday! I plan on Shredding Thursday morning before I leave and Sunday afternoon when I get back. I will take my dvd with me but I can make no promises because my butt WILL NOT be shredding in front of people. LOL
Monday, November 2, 2009
Alone?
I love the responses and the feeling of people supporting and caring about me on this journey. I know that may sound silly but it is truly important to me. I think that is because I my day to day life I don’t have anybody around me that I am close to that has ever had a weight issue and that really know where I am coming from or what I am struggling with!
I have been mentally struggling lately and I don’t really know why – I guess it is just part of the process. I am trying to remain strong, I know what I need to do. I just need to do it.
Do you have a fear of dying? I do. I am sure I have mentioned that here before but I think about something happening to me because of my weight all of the time. I have realized that this is an excuse to an extent. I don’t mean for it to be, and I really do feel bad sometimes but I can’t allow that to stop me. I need to make a Dr.’s appt. and get a peace of mind. I have been having this pain on the left side of my body right above my breast for a few days now and I don’t’ know what it is. My dad suggested that I maybe pulled a muscle with exercising or even coughing. He may be correct but regardless it scares me. The worst part is that I have been having so many scares since Feb. when all this GERD business started that I don’t feel like people really listen to me and they think I am just complaining. I guess I understand a little bit because to be quite honest I feel like I am going crazy.
It really is a double edged sword. I know that if I lose weight I will feel better, but not feeling good and being scared prevents me from exercising to lose weight. Am I alone on this? I feel alone, I feel crazy.
I have been mentally struggling lately and I don’t really know why – I guess it is just part of the process. I am trying to remain strong, I know what I need to do. I just need to do it.
Do you have a fear of dying? I do. I am sure I have mentioned that here before but I think about something happening to me because of my weight all of the time. I have realized that this is an excuse to an extent. I don’t mean for it to be, and I really do feel bad sometimes but I can’t allow that to stop me. I need to make a Dr.’s appt. and get a peace of mind. I have been having this pain on the left side of my body right above my breast for a few days now and I don’t’ know what it is. My dad suggested that I maybe pulled a muscle with exercising or even coughing. He may be correct but regardless it scares me. The worst part is that I have been having so many scares since Feb. when all this GERD business started that I don’t feel like people really listen to me and they think I am just complaining. I guess I understand a little bit because to be quite honest I feel like I am going crazy.
It really is a double edged sword. I know that if I lose weight I will feel better, but not feeling good and being scared prevents me from exercising to lose weight. Am I alone on this? I feel alone, I feel crazy.
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